Loving both my children was always so easy for me because, for me they were what I always wanted. Losing Tanya physically has been the worst thing that could ever have happened to me. I know there are so many parents out there who, like me, have lost their children but, I will always feel my pain to be unique. My child was my life, my world revolved around her constantly. She was my soul mate, an answered prayer. It's a wonder I am still sane........WHY?

It feels so exhausting to constantly put up a brave front for all to see. No wonder I feel so tired the whole time. I just can't wait to be with Tanya. I just hope and pray the wait is not too long.... Deepa