The only thing I look forward to is going to work every day for I feel a sense of excitement and joy in being with the children and those working with me. It gives me a sense of deep satisfaction and purpose being able to contribute in my own way and at the end of the day coming home satisfied knowing that I have done my best in all honesty. Nothing else makes any sense to me. I hope I am able to continue like this till as long as I have the physical strength. It is my job here that has saved me and I feel aprehensive of the future, actually I'm afraid of what will happen when I'm too old to work! I try not to look so far ahead yet, there are times when I cannot help it. No matter how much I try it is difficult living one day at a time. I'm so afraid of growing old without Tanu, she always gave me so much to look forwad to.