After Anjan was killed I thought you [God (?!!)] would cut us some slack and I always told Anjali and Tanya that you would never let any harm come to us. Now I really wonder...? Why again? Why? Why? Why?.... we tried so hard to be good human beings then why did you allow this to happen to my Tanu?... why me? Why us? I am so full of anger... so angry at {You (?!!)}. Where the hell are you? Why did you allow this to happen? I will never ever talk with you again. I always trusted you so much, nothing in my life was done without speaking about it with you. I always begged you tokeep my Tanu safe, for so many years I begged you. You knew very well how much I loved her. Then why? Were you not satisfied after Anjan's death?....Oh I am so terribly angry with you for letting me down. What guarantee is there that you won't let me down again and again and again?... You are a sadist I feel. You have never liked to see me happy even though it hardly took much to keep me happy...Deepa