Despair
This blinding, excruciating pain ...
Which from time to time tears through my being
Searing my heart and making me scream….
When will it stop? When will I find peace again?
This second time over, is just too much,
Is this retribution or just my bad luck?

Always contented with what life offered to me
Never asking for more, because that is just not me.
The dreams I dreamed were simple and few
Then why were they shattered and broken into…..A million little pieces
Making it impossible to pick up again
And… Once more, making me go completely insane?

I cannot take this anguish, not any more….
Groping in the darkness seeking for answers
To questions that were never answered even before.
I am so tired of fighting… I want to give up
My life feels so empty… What do I do?
Where do I go from here? I haven’t a clue.

This despair that envelopes me, I just cannot bear…
What was doled out seems just so unfair
Haunted by memories of my two loves,
With no solace whatsoever even from above,
I now beg for freedom of my soul
Which lies broken and shattered in this body of mine
It is so dark in here I cannot see…
Please, just this once …Oh please, please set me free!

......... Deepa Banerji