Some people think that September is bad for me...they have no idea that everyday is the same for me. Everyday the intensity of the pain stays the same, it never diminishes. My loss is the same whether it is September , October , November or any other month or day. Tanya is my child, so how can I pain for her less on one day and more on another? My pain remains the same ... it is just how strong I am on a particular day to be able to withstand the pain that makes all the difference.