The need to stay occupied both mentally and physically has filled me with a sense of urgency that at times I drive myself beyond limits. This is just so that I am able to forget the painful shroud that is wrapped around me... but I cannot forget. I feel so bowed down because of the emptiness that is inside of me, having lost all semblance of direction and personal focus. I live from day to day forcing myself to move on because I am left with little choice. I wonder why this has become my lot? What did I do to deserve this? ...Deepa